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I keep telling myself that I’ll get used to the face she makes, but it isn’t true. Or at least, it hasn’t happened yet. Twice a day now, since October, I have given Jade “treats”, and by treats, I really mean treat-coated pills. We’ve dropped her meds down to cipro, pred, and pepcid, twice a day. Back at the beginning, or even a month ago, I could trick her into eating them: I’d prep the pill pocket, then give it …
Yesterday, I conquered fear. Given a moment of confrontation, I didn’t allow the story inside my head to take over my day (it was only 7:30 am– it would’ve been a really looonnggg day if I obsessed over the single text message that overwhelmed me with fear). Saturday, I lost out to fear. Instead of dancing with a woman whom I love, I worried about how I’d look. I LOVE to dance; if you ever pass me on the highway, …
Listen. Do you hear my voice? It is in my eyes, for I do not yet speak. Call. Do you know my name? It is written in the depth of my being. Invite. Are you willing to hold space for me? If you do, I have treasures to share. Thank you. I have spoken. I am seen. Now I remember.
I’m hyper-flexible. When I told one of my clients this, she responded, “Of course you are, Monica. You’re always willing to go with last-minute changes and work around stuff that comes up for me. Mommy, isn’t Monica hyper-flexible?” This cracked me up because what I actually meant was that my joints are hyper-mobile and so I can bend and stretch in ways most people can’t. However in life, when it comes to plans where I may be looking forward to …
“But you accept me as I am with all that is fragile, all that is broken, all that is beautiful, too…Then the extraordinary thing is we can let down barriers, we don’t have to prove, I don’t have to pretend I’m better than you are, I’m allowed to be myself. I’m allowed to be myself because you love me.” Jean Vanier “Any deep and genuine friendship is rooted in a covenant of two persons…To believe in someone is to give that …
